Cos I shouldn't have bothered to post the earlier entry. Cos it was too personal. But ohwell~ Since I posted, I will not remove it. And to tell the truth, my friend said instead of being buddies for four years, she said it was only two years. WHICH TOTALLY HURT ME. :< But it's kinda true so... It's mai fault. Ahahahaha.
And yeah. Recently I'm in not much mood to be happy. I really don't know why I'm so... Emotionless recently. And it made her think I'm jealous cos when she told me she got called 'cutest ________' on the chat roulette and I tried to be happy for her but it seemed like she took the wrong idea and tadaaaah~ She concludes that I sound jealous which I tried to explain cos I don't really see why she's so happy when a stranger says she's cute. Cos I think it's... Disgusting. *SIGH* I gotta admit we think very differently. But... I guess I am a little bit jealous. Cos those strangers seem to be above me.
BUT NEVERMIND~ I still have my macbookie~ xD (P.S Ignore the next paragraph if you hate vulgar words. And I mean it.)
FUCKMYLIFE. Wait. Sorry. Shouldn't have typed that but just once. I really wanna let it all out! Cos she just replied my text with a 'Sorry. Since I'm better in socialising on the net.' Which I totally don't get it. I didn't tell her to apologise. And like I said before, I hate APOLOGISES SO FUCKING MUCH. I mean like seriously? Over something so meaningless, you apologise? It makes me feel bad. So I hate the feeling. Plus what has this got to do with socialising on the net? I can socialise on the net also. It's just that I don't want strangers adding me up on FaceBook or knowing my Emails so they can send a fucking picture of their disgusting part (e.g dicks, boobs and so on) and thus that's the reason they didn't contact me.
I know we think differently. I hope that things would be back to before which is impossible so I shall leave you alone and let you settle down before I try to open up the gates for you again. Cos it took me a lot of courage to let you in. And... I guess we are both changing. Even though I may seem super friendly, it would take a long time before I will let you get to know me. And... When I was showing a bit of myself to you, you did all these. *SIGH*
I can't do anything but cry now. xD Joking. I'm not someone who cries so easily. I a strong baby. xD Cos this is the only way I can be stronger. By not crying in front of people. Speaking of this, when I was young, I always get beaten by my dad just cos I made a small mistake. And I won't cry. Until I go to bed to sleep, I will think through and then cry silently. That's mai style~ :3 I guess that is also why people think I'm scary when they first see me and they say I'm super cool. Which if ironic. xD
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| Some random pics I found on my iPad. xD I swear my Ipad have interesting photos that mean so much stuff man! |
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